Assignments.. Assignments.. then Exams.. *sigh*
Life is becoming really boring.. I have thousands of work.. actually studies to do.. but here I am.. writing my blog.. and playing facebook games.. barbuddy.. desert shop.. farm heroes and so many.. I'm turning into a lazy ass.. I should study for my Public International law test on Saturday.. and I should start writing my Administatvie law essay which due on Monday... or I should start working on my Interpretation of Statute Presentation which is suppose to held on next Wednesday.. but I'm wasting my time playing games and day dreaming.. and if I got low marks, *sigh* there is no one to blame but me.. I'm so pathetic.. aren't I?
okay.. that's enough with complaining about being a lazy ass.. I was thinking what if there is really no such a thing call accidents in world? or chance? or coincident..?? what if it is really written by someone? what if the whole destiny is already decided and we are just playing our roles?? that's scary right.. thinking about being a puppet in someone's show. but then again I thought.. there is nothing to be scared of being a puppet because we are already are.. we are playing the roles which the society want us to play. When we are doing something we first think about our family.. what would they say if they knew that I want to be a poet not a doctor. or that I want to a painter not an engineer.. yes They will go nuts.. they will start scolding saying that I wasted their money.. I don't want to make them proud..
Then come our friends.. I want to date this guy.. who is not from the same social class... who doesn't do what I do or not the type my friends would call hot and handsome.. what would they say if they know I want to date him? oh yeah.. they will freak out.. yeah he is not going with my friends' society.. and culture.. I better find someone else..
Then come the office.. then neighbours.. etc..
we hide our true desires and we are playing the roles that others want us to play.. that is scary.. you only live once.. so make use of this life. (right as in buddism you will born again..but under different conditions.. so you will not get this life again.)
stand up for your self and live the life you want.. don't be a puppet in someone else's show.
Take care!!! :D